B E B A S S S S

Gw ngbebasin khayalan gw sbebas2nya, tanpa batas. Gw ngbiarin sgala khayalan itu dbahas dengan ssuka2nya, tanpa nahan diri. Dengan penuh ksadaran bahwa smua cuma akan bisa jd khayalan, gakan pernah bisa lbh dari itu.

Pembenaran yg gw punya ga lg bisa bikin smuanya tjawab, ga lg bisa bikin gw ketawa dengan sgala yg gw jalanin. Rasanya makin aneh, mungkin ini yg namanya getir ya? Sberapa kuat pun gw brusaha buat ngjalanin aja smuanya, smakin kuat jg ksadaran bahwa smua gakan bisa jd nyata, sberapa besarpun usaha yg gw kerahin.

Dengan bodohnya gw nggaret2 pisau d tangan gw sendiri, bgitu deketnya ama urat nadi gw. Pedih, perih dan gw berdarah, udah ga bisa lg nangis buat ngalihin perihnya, udah ga bisa lg triak buat minta bantuan orang…

Skali lg, gw terjun bebas tanpa parasut dan tanpa jaring pengaman…
Bunuh diri total!

Skali ini aja...

Skali ini aja...
Let me say this loud and clear
How I wish so hard for things to be different

Skali ini aja...
I want you to hear me say
How I wish to be able to stop and return the time

Skali ini aja...
Gw akan bilang, klo aja...

flashback from 9 Februari 2008

Love Takes Time

Hearing this song this morning while chatting with you on the phone...

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see the I was blind to let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
Cos love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here, alone

Don't worry too much
It's just another phase I had to go thru
I'll be juuuust fine *_*

Counting down the day...

Warmness and happiness is filling my heart, filling my life...
You brought even more lights into my life
It won't be a forever thing, I know
Those stolen moments with you would be enough

I had you here in my arms
Still have you in my heart and mind

I still can have you for the shortest future
Bless the days to keep you with me
Bless the hours to stand still and hold you there

Letting you go will not gonna be easy
Keeping you is not the option I have

Things work in their mysterious ways
For falling in love is one of the mysteries

Enjoying whatever laid before my eyes
Having another place in my heart occupied
As another human being bring the wall down
So there where you'll be...

Come What May...

I had my worries and fear
Then I made my decision
There's nowhere to run nor to turn

Just come whatever may
I am having additional wonderfull colours
For a short moment
Let me keep this happiness alive

For I can only hold you today
Let me treasure this moment
Feeling the comfort of knowing you're around

-dedicated to Hantubsar, akhirnya gw sayang ma elo deh-