All Packed Up

So I got the job and about to leave this beloved hometown for Tembagapura. Yup, Papua it is.

Rencana awal gw mestinya brangkat bsok tapi karna masalah akomodasi yang blom juga kelar sampe hri ini, yaa akhirnya mundur deh sampe ada kbar slanjutnya. Wihh.. smoga aja mreka ga brubah pikiran deh buat mempekerjakan gw hihihi...

Barang bawaan udah masuk koper smua, ternyata sama skali ga sdikit. Dua koper!! Kikikik...ga tanggung2 banget ga sih? Critanya buat persedian sampe waktu yang cyukyup (terjemahannya: sampe gw dapet gaji buat blangja) plus dengan asumsi gw ga beli baju slama 6 bulan.

I really am excited about this whole new thing. Yang pasti bakal bebas macet n bebas polusi. One thing that everybody keep saying is that there will be culture shock. Not only with local people, but from the people around the world. Asik kan? Bakal seru dan bakal ribet pastinya. I think its gonna be very challenging.

Some people questioning my decision to go to Tembagapura as my running away from whatever happened in my life. Well, i'm not in any position to give good judgement of that. I have my own reasons.

I need to get away from Jakarta, one thing for sure. Idup di Jakarta bikin engap, bikin sesek napas. Macetnya bikin kta keilangan banyak waktu buat ngumpul sama orang2 yang penting banget di idup kta, polusinya bikin langit ga lagi biru jernih, Jakarta bikin gw slalu aja ngrasa diuber2. Skarang ini gw bisa bilang klo gw capek idup di Jakarta. Hihihi gmanapun juga gw bakal kangen brats ama sgala macemnya Jakarta pasti...

As for million other reasons... I need time to rediscover myself. Aneh ya kdengerannya? But thats how i feel. Smoga aja smua bisa berjalan lancar dan ga ada halangan.

When God close a door, He opens a window...

Yup, SaMe Old Me

Life will be easier if i can forgive myself rite? I can let things go much much easier, can live in peace and move on happily with my life...

Forgiveness is a gift to give to yourself

RaiNBoW

18:10 Feli
Ada plangi loh. Liat langit d. Lengkung smpurna

There it was. Rainbow, beautifully stretch accross the sky with its magnificent colours. I feel peace, and hope.. May this be a good sign for whatever come ahead.

My very best friend is pregnant, Thank God, after all this time. I am sooo very happy for her and her husband. Both are one of my most favorite couple and dearest friends. May this be for the best and better...

Another best friend of mine has finally accepted a man to fill her life, has finally put aside her fear of a relationship, and finally take that she can also finds someone who can take her for what she is, loves her and willing to be part of her life forever. How i wish her all the love and happiness, may everything comes in all the best for her...

As for me...
May I find all the strength I had, to stand back on my feet and live my life peacefully. Life is just way too precious to ignore. That everything has their best timing, 4JJI has planned everthing perfectly. My time will come, so just sit back and do my best...let 4JJI take care the rest.

There's NO such thing as PERFECTNESS

U know that sometime life is even harder to bear because of other people's expectation on our life?...

We have our limitation, our own difficulties which other can hardly see. There's no way you can expect them to understand, and there's no excuse for you to tolerate any of those. Feels like cursing to ease the burden...

The power to survive is there, we can make it just fine i know. But facing it will never be as easy as it seems. Time will heal, time will take care of things.

I havent been able to stand firmly again, havent gathered my scattered pieces back in place. Havent been able to erase the guilty feeling and regrets. Million times i've told myself there's no use regreting things happened in the pass. Just have to deal with it, take the risk and learn from your mistakes. Why is it so hard to do that now?

Can hardly feel the smile in my heart. The emptiness remain.

Many times you feel like life is making fun of you. Just when you think that everything is just perfect, BOOM!!! Things fall apart. There's no perfectness which belong to us, to human being. We can only plan, imagining, hoping and pray.

Kini Harus Aku Lewati
Sepi Hariku Tanpa Dirimu Lagi
Biarkan Kini Ku Berdiri
Melawan Waktu Tuk Melupakan Mu
Walau Pedih Hati Namun Aku Bertahan
(damn!! knapa juga mba2 warnet nyetel lagu ini skarang sih??)

Everything happens for a reason, though many times we cant find what the reason was. Still you have to have faith, have to believe, that everything that happen is for your best. Again, this cliche statement is never easy to apply.

bsok 40hri Savana pgi...

It's Good to be Single..hihihi

Kmaren ini ada temen gw telpon, its been a while since our last phonecall. Listening to her life story and all the problems she's dealing...until she said the word; I envy you for being single. Waks!!! This is not the first time I heard such statement from a friend.

Manusia emang ga pernah puas. Yang udah kawin pada pengen single kya gw, sementara yang single kya gw pengen kawin dan punya anak kya mreka. Jadi apa yang salah? Mungkin ga ada yang salah...mungkin cuma kta aja yang kurang mensyukuri keadaan yang ada...ato kta yang kurang bisa menikmati smua yang ada diidup kta.

Being single means freedom. The only person in charge and responsible for whatever we do with ourlife is ourself. Tapi itu juga berarti kta dituntut untuk bisa mandiri, cause there's none to share. In so many different ways, both situations has their own problems.

Percaya kan, 4JJI udah siapin kado terbaik buat each one of us...all we have to do is do our best and let 4JJI take care the rest.

**Just hang in there dear friend, everythings gonna be just fine**