Hiding Place

There are times when u feel like hiding, or just be by urself to express ur heart and mind. Just to sit there and enjoy the helplessness, cry till ur eyes swollen, scream till ur throat sore.

Imagining myself on the beach again. Such a quite place, the cool wave keeps coming back to the beach and wet my feet, soft sand beneath my feet, little crab running away from the water. Birds fly above my head. Blue sky...blue ocean...

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Do u realize that before u cry, ur heart feels hurt, the wrisk of ur left hand hurts so bad, u can hardly breath properly and next comes the blurring eyes...and u cry.

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Another ten days before my flying home but somthing just doesnt feel right. I'll think of my beach tonite, hope to find some strength and peacefullness.

Count Down to Closing Day

Kta ga slalu punya ksempatan buat nyelesein smuanya sperti yg kta mau. Banyak hal yg cuma bisa dslesein sama waktu, entah bsok, lusa, taun depan ato spuluh taun lagi. Rasanya skarang gw msh punya ksempatan buat nutup smuanya dengan baik, at least sbaik yg gw bisa.

Rasanya kya mesti balik lg k hri itu, tp gw ttp mesti jalanin smuanya, to have peace with my past. Smoga aja gakan ssusah yg gw khawatirin.

I'll be there on your bday, hope to see you smhow...

Drowning

Been a long and hard days lately, feel exhausted, out of breath, mentally ill and other expression doesnt seem to be able describing my real feeling. I had blurry eyes today, cant control myself. Feels tired to tolerate things that has no system, tolerate people that has no manner nor attitude.

At times like this, I wish I cud just packed up my bag n go straight to the airport, buy one way ticket...coming home.

...18days to go to departure...